Posts Tagged ‘eating disorder’

I have a confession

August 28, 2010

So, I just thought about this after reading about someone with bulimia, I had an eating disorder too and it wasn’t bulimia and it was not anorexia.

I used to binge, but I never purged (goodness NO).

Seriously, it started in high school when I gained the freedom to purchase lunch and snacks for myself. I would sometimes not eat at lunch or only eat something small to save money. Then, maybe later after school, on my way home, I’d buy as much junk as my budget would fit and go eat it in my room. A bag or two of 25 cent chips, a cupcake, 50 cent soda. Harmless, right? Well, this habit became more ritualized as time went on, I would save, umm, so I’d have enough to go on a mini shopping spree and buy a bunch of stuff. For the longest I was going to Dunkin Donuts on Fridays and buying a dozen donuts going home and locking myself up just to eat them. I’m not going to lie, they were good, I love Dunkin Donuts. Taco Bell (at the time I could eat it without feeling sick for days) I’d buy some and go lock myself in my bathroom,play music, eat, and be merry. This may or may not have had something to do with ending my high school drinking foray because it did start around the same time.

It was funny because this should’ve made me gain tons of weight, but it didn’t.

I guess some kids did drugs and screwed all during high school and some, like myself, over-ate, in the bathroom, with the door locked, music playing and the occasional bottle of wine or soda. Who knows?