I do declare

March 26, 2010

I’m not seeking a boyfriend at this moment, I’m trying to keep myself in line. I’m going to stay away from older men, I’m so serious this time. I don’t often attract guys my age, thus when I really want a guy I tend to pick from older men because they always seem to like me. Even in high school none of the boys liked me, but men in their 30s and up always tried to talk to me, all types, I remember hating that, till—yeah.

I would like a guy who’s closer to my age.  Older guys tend to be too busy, want to get married soon and have children, and be stuck in their ways, unwilling to change. I don’t need that.

Also if they’re serious I want to see a Tacori  or something great, put your money where your mouth is. Don’t say marriage or commitment to me unless you’re giving me one of those, because until I have one on my hand, I will not be nor act committed to anyone.

I will do as I please.


August 13, 2009

So I need a hobby. Besides looking for a job which is sadly my main pastime. I

*Completely off topic. I just think secretive people are silly because their secrets always come out.

When I think of you

March 25, 2009

I’m back at it. Dating. Why wouldn’t I be?

I know I initiated the break up but there are several reasons for that. Besides I’m not the same person .

I know I have communication issues, but why didn’t he just be straight up with me?

The odd thing is I’m really not going crazy about it. If that’s the way it is then that’s the way it is.

When life gives you lemons make lemonade. Lemonade shall be made!

You can’t afford me

November 22, 2008

I’m not lonely. I just sometimes would enjoy having something to do on Friday and Saturday nights besides work.

I don’t need a boyfriend, I don’t need to date. It’s so stupid. I don’t think they understand or accept me for who I am. Yes, I have a strong fondness for guys, you could almost call me boy-crazy, but that does not translate into everything I do. It’s one of those things, like if you talk about something a lot you end up not doing it, well it’s like that.

If anyone’s ever questioned it…I do love myself first. Who else would I? Just because I incorporate others into my life or am willing to, doesn’t mean I’ve lost myself.  Just because I am adult enough to show my feelings doesn’t mean I’m a doormat. I guess some people think so and that is fine, I cannot help what anyone thinks about me. I’m constantly evolving, so like it or leave it.

I just want stuff to wind down a bit.

Like people always question and I even used to question how do people do all this stuff without feelings attached, well I know it’s possible, because I now have no romantic feelings whatsoever. I know I used to, but really now, I don’t, and I’m not so sure how long this will last.

Ready, set, go!

November 17, 2008

Everything’s just balancing out now.

I’ve got an early morning interview for school.

At times I ask myself is all this paperwork and research worth it? Then I remind myself, I must go for everything and anything because no one else will do it for me.

I may change, but I’m always going to be me to the core. I’m very forgiving, that’s all I can say. I really am changing, because I have a lot of goals and want to do all the things I choose to go after.

Right now, I feel all my friends are off doing their own things whether or not we’re at the same school, and I’m wishing everyone well because I wish myself well, and God does provide.

I harbor no ill will, it’s all peace and love.